I would like to say how meaningful this shop is for me because it connects me to my grandma Argentina, mother of my mother, and that I am not making a living from this but hoping to use the money sowed here to extend this shop to have a fashion line and homegoods. In one of my videos called, the story behind the Life War animation series, I talk about two vows I made to God. One vow was that I would give every talent and gift away for free to Him because I grew up in a domestic violent home and for a very long time I longed to be heard, accepted, and understood by my own parents, my friends or just experience being in a safe space where I genuinely felt like I mattered and feel loved but I didn’t find satisfaction neither in school, work, or anywhere. My mom was my only safe place to be.

Life War concept 1 illustration. 2021.

The enemy robbed me of my gentleness, my sweetness, my innocence and with that took away my dreams, my hopes to bring me to an anguish to hate myself and those around me. When I gave my life to Jesus Christ, He told me I was valueable and worthy because He had died for me. It felt too good to be true for me but this freedom that I am enough that He gave me set me right and made me see that I don’t need to achieve to become important. I already am. I already matter. It is for this reason giving this business for free was easy because it meant returning back to my true identity in Jesus Christ and not feel ashamed of it. Returning back to that childlike me that was quiet and gentle that loved making art out of anything I could find or draw endlessly in my notebooks. I longed for a very long time for a place where I could simply be sincere in expressing myself without fears and be in quiet peaceful slow living where I’m wearing bandanas and long skirts in the middle of a green hillside living out some aesthetic dream keeping my home cozy and making delicious food and washing my brooms and mops and laughing like there is no tomorrow. That what I hope for is not going to result in a disappointment or feel like I am doing something wrong. To be able to laugh again from a place of genuine safety that I’m not going to die. 🥲😂 I was ungrateful of having loving parents who only showed me love from their sacrifices and of God’s love who was literally telling me to wait for His grace instead of filling my heart up with resentments. Only God gave me true peace and healing to humble me and make me learn true compassion and mercy that the world did not teach me. Only He gave me the courage to say the things that were most hidden within me and be okay to be seen and let go of the past. Nothing of this world taught me anything about the spiritual war going on except what I heard from my mother which was her faith in Jesus Christ. This is where the animated series, Life War, is drawing inspiration from. More of this is going to come as the animation begins to take shape. I’m at the stage of only sketches right now.

My second vow follows that I would allow God to provide for me as He sees fit and live by the system of reciprocity where I am not asking for money instead I will allow God to move hearts. Again, as He sees fit for me to live according to His plan because after chasing alot of selfish ambitions and seeing that my efforts failed every time how much they hurt me, I have learned to submit to His authority and have Him take care of me. Instead I let myself be lead by the Holy Spirit even if I’m still struggling with myself and ask the Holy Spirit for everything I do.

This brings me to my beautiful grandma. I didn’t mention this at the beginning but my grandma and my mother are from Guatemala. Anyways, my grandma was a seamstress. She was an artist who like me used her imagination to make beautiful dresses. She embroided beautiful designs on her pillowcases, make handmade shelves or knit. She was a woman with great pains and found her comfort in her art. The stories I love the most about her are her noble heart for the homeless. This woman never denied anyone money even if it meant she didn’t have any to feed her children. 😂 Honestly, this is my dad as well. My father is someone who cares for the poor too because we too have gone through great sacarcity and that alone has not rob us of our joy. To us, the most simple things bring us the most happiness and mean so much more. Simply being together brings us peace. I digress but well this generosity in the middle of poverty did inspire me and the immense strength of character my grandma and my mother have after experiencing great pains but both of them found great peace from their unshakeable faith in Jesus Christ.

It is from this reason that I hold this in my heart so dear that I have envisioned to work for free for the love of Jesus Christ because these woman are the very reason I am redeemed today by an unshakeable faith they inspire me to have in the middle of so much chaos.

I really want to be like my grandma in the way she crafted freely finding comfort in making and I want to allow the Holy Spirit to have His way here because it is the only thing that I have found comfort in the middle of my great distress.

I want to celebrate the memory of my dear grandma who I really would have loved to meet her and we would be imagining some grandeur vision that would probably take us years to make but either way we would have finished anyway. Before passing, she literally left behind an unfinished dress. 😂 I’m in tears as I write this all down because after being in so much bitter pain from my past, the Lord has sweeten my heart by reminding me that I am not alone and I’m very loved indeed.

I am so thankful to my grandma who made the best decision she could have made in her life of giving her children over to Jesus Christ because she brought us an invalueable inheritance of hope and creativity that can only be found in Him. It makes me proud of being able to connect with her at least in this way for now— but imagine what great things we both will see and make with Jesus in heaven!— and bring Guatemalan artisanry to the forefront and for FREE!!!!!!!!

You’re literally going to buy illustrated stickers that came sketched out from my anguished prayer tears to God on this platform. 😂😂😂